The Journey

Like a seed, we are born whole and complete, full of the inner wisdom required to unfold our lives into a beautiful ancestral-tale of symbiosis with Nature and Cosmos; just like a seed unfolding into a magnificent mature tree. However, our modern lives are more like fairy-tales, they have a dark and light side to them. Early in our childhood, the unfolding of our life’s journey was derailed from its dreamy course due to the corrupting conditions we were subjugated to by the Collective Ego. The Collective Ego is responsible for the environment we were born into and live in. Our lives were shaped more through the outer dark forces of fitting in, trauma, and abuse than by our innate inner wisdom. As a result, our psyche has ended up out of sync with the psyche of Mather Nature and has tuned into the psyche of Ego nature.

At some point in our life, we look around and find ourselves lost in an unhospitable landscape; we are lost and overwhelmed. This is the conception of awareness. David Thoreau said, “Not till we are lost, in other words, not till we have lost the world, do we begin to find ourselves, and realize where we are and the infinite extent of our relations.” This is a very important stage of our growth since, if we had not derailed, we would have gone through life burning away without making any flame; more like the projection of a candle rather than an actual candle that burns into light. It is in this spark of awareness that our candle ignites, and it is in the work we do on ourselves, from this moment on, that the light in us is going to illuminate inside us, outside us, and each other, or is going to be snuffed out. In this lost place that we find ourselves, we have the opportunity to begin a new journey; not the one that was unfolding from birth, but the one unfolding in the present moment. This journey is the Mythological “Hero’s Journey,” referred to by Joseph Campbell. It is the journey through which we are rewarded with the capacity to hold consciousness, and consequently the experience of consciousness. Consciousness is the light of the candle; it is the embodiment of the light. However, consciousness is not the experience of light, as opposed to and separate, from darkness, let alone the absence of darkness. Consciousness is the experience of the light found in the darkness.

At the beginning of our journey, awareness may just be a restlessness inside of us resulting from the split between longing for the light and dreading for the darkness, but our dread and the unhospitable condition is the place where our journey starts. It is here; it is here in the only place that we exist! Thus, take a moment to look at the burdens that life has put on you. Take a look at your traumas, fears, anxiety, grief, depression, desires, and expectations. This is the topology of your inner journey! These are the mountains, valleys, waters, crevasses, swamps, and quicksands that you will have to traverse in order to get back to your true self, and that is the ending of your fairytale. The true light of your wholeness is not separate from darkness. It is found in it. Your true light is found in your own darkness.

Begin your journey!

You are not alone; I am here with you and for you. My offering as a therapist is to be a catalyst to initiate you to the awareness of your own journey, and as a guide to accompany you through it.